I want to meet the me
Who is it plagued by tragedy
Just like all my friend
Who didn’t suffer
Until their mid 20s

Better

Your eyes grew wide
I just want to make it better
We’re locked outside
Grey clouds sprawled forever
The skylines closed
I guess we’ll wait till summer
The apartments cold
I hope that this gets better
.
And after all
The things I said
I wish I’d stayed
.

I can’t call
My lungs can’t stand the air
They always fall
Apart when you’re not here
I’m locked outside
I thought I’d make this better
Shut the blinds
I don’t want to go anywhere

And after all
The things I said
I wish I’d stayed

And you’re on my mind from time to time (you’re in my mind)
Whispering things I could never leave behind. (left behind)
And now I just wish that you were here
Because I don’t recognize who I am anymore

.

I drove home
I just couldn’t stand the weather
Call next fall
Maybe then I can make it better

Haunted

This town is haunted
I feel you in the walls
You’re holding on to something that’s been gone
And I’m just a ghost
Looking for something to be
Roam the dim lit streets as nothing but a memory.

If I knew then what I know now
Even if it was just a year ago
I probably wouldn’t change anything
No I wouldn’t change anything
.
If I knew you then
like I know you now
I wouldn’t be sending drunk text messages

When I can’t hear the music in my head I feel like I’ve lost everything
.
Before you change your mind
I just need to say
that I’ve always been on your side
When the fall falls
You’ll follow in its wake
Push your fingers to my heart
And tell me it’ll be okay
.
What I can’t hear the music in my head
I feel like I’ve lost everything
So please turn up your stereo
And I’ll prove that you’re my everything

I feel like graffiti on the train Just words that will pass you buy Yeah sure they look good now Button time everything fades away

I just couldn’t help myself
A I sit and watch the sunrise
I told myself I’d never fall again.
.
Coughing out smoke and depression
I felt the sunlight fill the absence
I wish that utter would do the same for me
.
But it’s hard to think that im driving
to a place I’ve called my home
For so long I think it’s time to let go
.

It’s hard to say you’re fine when you’re drunk at 3 p.m.

I feel like nothing’s changed this summer
Just perpetually stuck in a lie
Listening to the same albums that give me hope
But feeling like I’m nothing more
.
Screaming my soul in transit
On my way to nothing more
Feeling trapped and displaced

Is hope enough
To keep everything the way it’s been
So I don’t feel like bones with skin
I don’t want to give up
Keep moving on
I just want to have a second chance
To take this world with my two hands
To prove that I’m not wrong
I’m always wrong

No disrespect
There are things I wish
I would have heard
before you left
So I’ll hold my tongue
And hum along
To the discourse
in my head
Smoke and tar
To cover my scar
and keep my memories and check
I don’t think it’s working yet.
.

I refuse to be comfortable
I stop myself when I see the sign
I’m too afraid to slow down
Thinking that if I stop I’ll get left behind

All the things that I fear come from things that I’ve done
From the time that I’m trapped in my mind all the times that I run
I guess I’m getting used to trying to fight it off
But I’ll keep searching for acceptance and love

I appreciate everything more when I’m wasted
From the night we spent together
To the days where I do nothing
I appreciate it more when I’m wasted

You tell me that I stop breathing in my sleep
They tell me that it’s a disease that’s inside of me
but I’m not sure if that’s really true
I just keep losing my breath whenever I’m with you.